Hey everyone. Its the end of week 2 in this term. And I am going to die of panic attacks. I am lucky not to have joined Drama in secondary school...if not it would be panic attacks + suffering of immeasurable amounts. And given how messed up my life is, I would say that having a combination of both is more than I can handle.

Anyway, back to reality. Friday was quite a slacked day as usual. Had PE and I managed 14.50 on 2 rounds Barker...failed by 10 seconds. I think that's like my average timing on Barker...since last year it has not improved. I hope my 2.4km run next Tuesday will be better. Anyway, the day went by without much problems. The Chinese test was interesting. After school, Shaun, Ke Li, Nick and I headed off to Riverwalk for some studying before a cellgroup session. So Jos tagged along. And just before the session, Nick left and we went to with Shaun to help with the ushering duties. Ironically, I was there for the first time too. -.-. So after that at about 6.30pm, Ke Li, Jos and I left. It took me 1/2 an hour to wait for the darn bus...and it was packed. So I got home and did some homework then fell asleep.

Saturday was relaxing, as usual. Went for breakfast, came home...waited till 4.30pm, went to Orchard...hang round a bit. While I was waiting for to pass my friend something, Tara asked me to go into class to wait. Then she asked for my comments on their picnic of words performance, and I literally had no clue. I kinda feel out of the whole JG class already. I just feel like something is missing. Anyway, after that...I went for dinner with my family at Redhill and it was off home. My cousin had to use the com so I just used the laptop instead. Was watching some wrestling on Youtube when I came across the video of how Khali nearly killed Rey Mysterio. It was scary cause there was another video of how Khali deflated and NBA basketball in his two hands by crushing it. He did that vice hold on Rey Mysterio's head and it ended with Rey spitting blood. At least he didn't die. Bloody brute of a giant. Anyway, away from all this random stuff. I wanted to do something but ended up not having the guts to do it. Damn, I am a gutless coward.

So today I woke up at 9am. And I was planning to go to church, but my mum insisted that she would not let me be brainwashed by christians...-.- What kind of a bloody reason is that? No sense at all. So anyway, I just didn't want to get into conflict with my mum so I decided not to go. And my mum kept nagging and nagging about it until we reached my grandma's house. I wanted to get out of the car as soon as possible and just chill in my little isolated corner...where ever that is. So after we ate there we just went home. And I did homework until about 6 pm when my parents came home and I think i dozed off. Woke up at 9.30pm...went for dinner with my dad till 10.30pm. Yep, that kind of wraps up my week...

Happy 16th Birthday to Alex. (:

I saw that look in your eyes when I went in. I saw you turn away. Why? Is it because of anger? Are you hurt? I don't know how to speak to you. I don't know where to find the courage to call you up just to ask "How are you doing?". I want to know if I can mend our friendship or if I have create such a huge gap that can't be replaced. What was the reason? Did I catch you on a bad day? I want to do something. I need to do something. But the problem is, I don't know where to begin.

Alright, I guess it is time to scoot. Got to do my literature, it is kind of hard when you have not written good essays for a long time. And I still have A math hanging on my neck. Along with art. I need to have some inspiration or find a way to create a new style of my own. *Sigh*.

Signin' off. ;)

Hey people. Yes I welcome anyone to my blog, just so long as you do not degrade it, including Joel Chee for that fact. The week has been quite good to me. With ups and downs and a lot of thinking to do.

This week, the projections for our O levels came out based on the PSLE score. Mine projected a score of 12.8 points. not enough to go to ACJC, and it seem that I got the top in the class. So that coverts to 4A2 not going to ACJC. So we all got to work harder I guess, if that mindset gets into the whatever brains is left of those DOTA freaks who don't want to let the lesson go on. I am starting to go into a depression with all the "helpful" comments from what you would call "friends".

Monday and Tuesday were just a HUGE drag. It was boring and pointless. Wednesday was a bit better with my things sorting out. But today, well...today everything just came crashing down on me. I don't know what to do with my studies. I am trying, but seems like some people just see me as a failure. I can't pull up to that standard overnight, but I need to. In order to keep myself in pace. I guess it is time for me to just withdraw into my own world, but problem is...I can't find it. I can't find my "quiet corner" in my life anymore. Everyone around me has made me lose my way.

I just hope that I will be able to pull myself back together. That 12.8 points is there for me to aim towards, surpassing it is my ultimate goal. And now, it is hit or miss. Time to go do some target practise.

Cya all.

Hey all. Its Easter Sunday today. No Easter eggs though...*sigh*

Good Friday was quite a fun day. Woke up and went for breakfast with my parents. Then they dropped me off at home. And I just lazed round and did a bit of work till 2 pm when I left the house to go meet Jos and Janel so that we could head off to City Harvest Jurong to meet Shaun for the church play. It was pretty irritating to meet Jos, cuz she told me she would be at Settlers cafe (Clarke Quay) at 2.30pm. I get there, ring her god knows how many times. And she calls back after 10 minutes telling me she is at Park Mall. Great. So I went down to Plza Singapura to meet her. After she finally arrived we waited for Janel cuz she was coming down from Serangoon. So after everyone was gathered, we headed off by MRT to Boon Lay. On the train, Shaun was hurrying me because we were running late. And Jos found it funny to sms to us: "Lol, we are all looking at our handphones. " I replied: "Yea, cuz some is hurrying me because of Someone. ". So it was a near silent trip to Boon Lay MRT station. There, we met Shaun and we took a bus to his church. City Harvest looks more like a business building than a church. They have a friggin' RECEPTION COUNTER. I was like... (O.O). So we went down to the main hall and there the girls were separated cuz girls get to sit on chairs while guys sit on floors. Good sense. Haha, I was sitted beside Shaun and unlike most churches I go to, I felt comfortable there as a first timer due to the number of people and how friendly they were. So I watched the entire thing. Only problem was the camera, because it is kinda hard to focus on the actors when there is a huge screen above them using camera techniques to bring out their expressions. A few faces looked familiar though... So after the sermon, they asked for people to go to the front to recieve the Lord. And to my surprise, they pointed out backsliders. Very few churches do that and it hit me, because I was one of those I guess. Commit, re-commit but never really feeling the relationship with God. So I went forward, and so did Jos. Then we had some refreshments were we met Darice and Julia at the 5th level, they are Shaun's cell group members and it is quite a fun bunch to be with. So after that I headed off to Jurong Point with Jos and Janel to do gift shopping for my friend. And I just ended up buying some stuff from 77th street. It is kind of a habit now...no idea for gifts? 77th Street. And I got my application for a member there too. Haha, now I have a Step up 2 headband to give away...wonder who wants it. Then it was off home.

Saturday was like an aftermath. My whole family woke up at 12 nn. Quite early. My dad woke up at 1 pm. Then we went for lunch followed by my brother's JG class. Then we headed home on our own...and it was kinda the end of the day. And I broke a promise I made within a day. For the first time. *sigh*

Easter Sunday, Jos invited me to her church for Easter Sunday. And it was Breakfast with Jesus at PLMGS. But then the person who invited me, was late. So I just hung round a while and waited till she came. Then we all split off and I sat with the guy's cell. Quiet bunch, other than then poking fun at Samuel Poh. Lionel was laughing his head off when he saw me, I know why... But the experience was interesting. After all that, Jos and I headed to eat lunch and proceeded to PLMC to study. There I got help for math from Vic and Kenneth, lit from Jos, which kinds of covers my entire week's homework. A prove that Mr Mak is a math freak, Kenneth could not figure out the rate of change qns... So I just did Literature till I couldn't stand it and I switched homework with Jos, Lit for Chinese...WOW, brilliant deal. Which took me 20 mins to write more than what she wrote for 2 hours. After that was all over and in between it was an entertaining process of watching what was happening between Poh and Duck. Which was funny even if you didn't have a clue about what is going on. Then after all the commotion, we finally left. And I did something really stupid on the MRT after Jos and I decided to go for dinner at Bugis, I called my dad and told him I was at Potong Pasir. He asked me to alight cuz he was around that area. So I apologized and left. Then we waited for my mum from 6pm - 8pm....while she talked. And when we got home I just rushed homework and it is still not done...*sigh*

Well, back to work I guess. Gotta run. Cya.

Yo everyone. Its Thursday, and tomorrow is GOOD FRIDAY. The week went by as fast as lightning. It was back from holidays and then 'POOF!' end of week 1. Monday, was late...Tuesday, was bad...Wednesday, was a drag.

Today was Chinese Mid Year Paper for the internal examinations. Paper 1 and 2. I think I screwed up the letter writing, but my second part was quite nicely done if I should say so myself. Then paper 2 was a blast, 1 hours for the open ended comprehension and 10 mins to the MCQ. The other 20 mins, I fell asleep. So after all the commotion we went off to Ngee Ann Polytechnic for a math profiling test and a talk. The profiling test was stupid with everyone getting Grade 4 [It goes from 1 being lowest to 9 being highest]. Then the talk was a time for music, books and PSP games.

After the Polytechnic trip, Ian, Eugene, Nick Yue, Ke Li, Jeremy and I decided to go play LAN at IRC. Today was my first time playing DOTA, and I felt kinda stupid cuz i have no idea what was going on...First round was Razor and I got OWNED. But that's usual as a noob. So the nwe headed to Ian's house for his B'day party. It was PSP games followed by dinner. Then came the games. We had a shot at Polar BEAR, and Lucas got the brute of it. Then it was walking around for a bit before we started to play monkey, which was later replaced by Captain's ball. It was a hard fought match where the score didn't matter because everyone was just in a frenzy. Then it was soccer after a break for 1/2 an hour were everyone wa s kicking around like mad people. After all the fun and games, we all left. Lucas first then the rest. I got a lift from Nick Yue, luckily...cuz my dad didn't answer my calls.


I feel really frustrated right now. Told Kim about the good friday drama and she still has not contacted me about the confirmation...should have asked for her number. My fault. T.T

Seems like the past few days have been rough on some of us. But I hope we can get through it together and do well by the end of the year.

Anyway, tomorrow is the drama at City Harvest. I hope it is good... Don't wanna end up wasting my time there. And I hope some one at least has a last minute reply. Lol.

"My apologies are never-ending,
how sincere do I have to appear?
I know that you are forgiving,
yet how will I know if you're here?

I hope for friendships to never break,
and our memories to never fade.
But looking at where I stand,
I don't want this to be the end."

I hope you hear my cries for forgiveness and accept my sincere apologies. I am TRULY SORRY for the things I said.

Hey people. I am BACK from Ipoh. Went there for some Feng Shui thingy in the resort villa. That place is the coolest Chinese place I have ever seen. It is so Chinese that I thought I was in China, only to be reminded that it is Malaysia due to the surrounding factories. Of course, as we all expect...I had no idea why I was there.

I woke up at 4 am that day just to catch the bus which was to leave at 5am, that's like the most insane timing since my trip to Genting. It was a long 7 hours journey to the location. Which was a resort villa in the middle of no where, and is meant to be the 'pinnacle' of Feng Shui by location. It was excruciatingly boring, cause my only sources of entertainment was the PSP and my new book:'P.S. I love you'. The PSP was hogged by my brother who played with it till it went flat...and my book, lets just say it isn't comfortable reading when you feel like you are on a horse. So generally, I replaced everything with SLEEP. Which I must admit, I needed A LOT of since I have had no time to catch up with it. Then we got there.

It was just settling in and bathing. We bathed using well water which was suppose to be good for our spiritual energy and luck. And then we had dinner, followed by a walk and a speech. Then I went to the room to take a break. Only to be called out again at 3.45 AM to go for another walk and wait for the "Teacher" who is a Feng Shui specialist of sorts. And I had some sort of enlightenment which will help me in life, SOMEHOW. But i guess it was all in good fun. After that, I went to bath again. It was 7 am at that time and breakfast was at 7.30 am. In the end after all the fumbling and hurrying the bus finally departed at 9 am. With that, I fell asleep again to make up for the night's lost sleep. The bus journey was another 7 hours back.

Then it was the start of my bad luck. Haha, I got caught for bringing in chewing gums in my bag. So I signed some stuff and watched it get destroyed by the police officer lady person...I actually felt like helping her destroy it faster cuz she was taking such a long time, even if it was 5 mins everyone was already clearing out of the check point. Then I was like: "Why bother? Soon this'll become a bad luck spree." So I said my thanks to the officer and left. Then everyone in the bus was cool about it, even though I did hear my mum talk about some lady who was worried that we'll get hauled up. Fortunately, it didn't happen and I just wanted to get home.

After the bus arrived at the drop off point, my family waited for my dad to get his car. It was fithy when we saw it, and he decided that we should get the car cleaned up. So we went through the carwash, dropped off something at my aunt's house and it was HOME! But it was only to get changed to go for dinner.

Then after we all were in the lift to leave, Jos called. Disaster number 2. I had pressed the button to answer the call and it was suddenly on loudspeaker and my whole family heard "HELLO!" and the rest was just a very funny explanation. But they didn't bugger me for long so I guess it was a good thing. And we had our peaceful dinner at Tanglin Halt market.

I decided to come home since my parent were going to send my aunt and my cousin back to where they wanted to go. And I had to do work anyway. So I came online and chatted with a few of my friends on MSN. Disaster 3, I seemed to have said something wrong and it caused a misunderstanding and now I have no idea of how to go about apologizing to my friend. Anyway, if you read this, I am REALLY, REALLY SORRY and I didn't mean to offend you. So after all that it was Chemistry homework, A math homework and Physics homework.

I am SO DEAD. LSL is going to kill me but I still can't get a storyboard for art. I officially HATE that monster and I am starting to dislike being under pressure. Oh well, life's little wonders. Aren't they called that? What a great day I'm having. I hope tomorrow is better.

Gotta run. Ciaoz.

Well, the holidays have come and gone...

So the two SPAs went by too...Physics and Chemistry. I kind of screwed up both. So I guess my marks are really going to be affected badly. Ah well, they had a negative y-intercept for physics...don't know how they did it. Well, I gave it my best shot anyway.

I had lessons during the holidays which made everything seem so interesting, or rather make the holidays feel like a school week. It was SS on Tuesday, Lit on Wednesday, A math on Thursday and Friday and CIP on Friday too. SS and Lit was okay and the two A math lessons were fine. But it was the sheer timing of it. SS, not so bad, 1 hour. Lit, 3 hours, but I didn't mind the pizza. A math was 3 hours per session, and the additional CIP visit made today feel like a FULL DAY. Not even a normal school day but a FULL DAY with additional stuff after school.

Well, all's not lost. Went to watch The Leap Years on Wednesday to kill some time. And it was a cool show. Very touching and emotional. It talks about the life of a girl who was born on 29th February. On her 12th birthday[3 years old], she went to see a fortune teller to read her love life. And turns out that he will be like the wind or something. And on the 24th birthday [6 years old], she found her "blurry blue" who agreed to a date. And after the date, the guy had to leave, so the promise to meet every leap year come about...etc. It is a great movie, I'll rate it 4/5. The 1 missing mark if for the fact that the show did not specify why the guy was in a coma...loophole. Yea, MUST WATCH for couples!

On with that...CIP was quite an event. It was more like a class outing really, and we all didn't really do any CIP at all. No one mingled with the old folks and we were all in our own worlds. When it came to the food sampling part. Mrs J. Ong was accussing Mr Mak for being a glutton. It was a fun time. And a few of us got FREE CHENDOL. :) [even if it wasn't the best].

Well, I am going to be out of town tomorrow till roughly sunday night. Gonna miss all my friends, my computer and my stuff. I hate travelling to places where I will feel bored, Ipoh is one of those places I guess...Yea. LSL is going to kill me for not finishing art, who the heck cares about her anyway? She can pass on an we will make it LSL-FREE DAY in ACS where we will throw darts at the pictures for the entire day. I wish for that day to arrive.

Okay, gotta run. Ciaoz.

Hey ya'll. Today was one LONG and TEDIOUS day. I seriously never knew a day could feel so long.

Anyway, here's a run down of it. I woke up at 7am, what a no life I am...*sigh* Then I went to play Cabal. Then I noticed it was 10.45 and ran for my phone. It turned out that I had 3 missed calls from Jos and 3 sms from the same person. Thing is, I had arranged to meet her at 9am. But the game was so interesting, that I forgot the time and my handphone was outside. Great, huh?

So I was like rushing all the way and I made my way to Orchard. And as usual, I am the one waiting. Why are guys always the ones made to wait? Anyway, I walked up to Popular to browse some books they had while waiting. I was reading Freddy Vs Jason, it got me interested in those two again. Then Jos turned up. We headed to Pepper Lunch but figured we didn't have enough money, so it had to do with some food and the food court. After lunch we walked to Burger King to study. It is so quiet there on Mondays, most of the people there was businessmen or poly students. So we just did our work there. At the same time I had bouts of "breaks" where I would play with my PSP and stuff. Then Jos would ask about the percentage questions involving interest and profits and what not, it kind of reminded me of Pri 6 work. So the hours dragged on and on...and we were there from 1 pm - 5.30pm. And people were going in and out and all. Then we headed off home.
I reached to void deck at the same time my parents got back, so just made it. Haha, then my mum asked me to do some stuff about a new Lenovo laptop they got from the IT fair yesterday.

Tomorrow is going to be one WINDING day, with SPA, SS and Physics SPA Q&A. Oh crap, I forgot to tell the class. Must remember tomorrow. MUST! And Jos is going for her ministry meeting and what not. And 鬥牛。要不要. has reached its last episode...the last one was just random. I feel the fate of sec 4s who want to do well: NO LIFE.

Well, I am off the revise for SPA. I am sure it'll be fun. Anyway, good luck to all who suffer the same fate as me. Will probably miss the duck...hmm...Naw, I think not. :) Ciaoz.

Yo all. Its been a hectic week.

Friday, I had to deal with quite a number of things. First it was REW, which had that Tony Adam guy come back to speak again. Ke Li was like: 'Look! it is the murder!'. Cuz in the earlier years, Tony had come to our school to talk about his life before. And last time we heard from him, Mr Ng gave us an earful after the speech. Because, boys being boys, we laugh when he mentioned that he used to shoot people straight in the face with a guy. Yea, so it was another round of it, and this time he came with this really funny slide show on how to visualize the process of us going to heaven or hell. I liked it, it was a cool presentation with the lying thieving murderers parts...
Yea, after that it was school and LEARNING JOURNEY.

SAFTI MI, was just outright boring. It was truly 'BEEN THERE, DONE THAT.' And we had no need to keep our handphones. It was no different from the last 2 years... And we had a taste of the military rations, which are too expensive to be lousy. And all the way, Mr Mak was making fun of Dave's natural camouflage. The SAFTI Tower was cool though. It was nice and windy. Then in the evening after I got home, my family went to go watch Water-Horse. It is a nice movie with very nice Scottish accents. But the story is a bit common. But it is interesting anyway.

Saturday... nothing much happened, I went for breakfast with
my family. Went to Orchard to meet Jos for some stuff. Then my family was like asking me to bring her to meet them. But eventually they were disappointed because of a coin toss. Lol. It went like this, Jos: 'If it is heads I go home, if it is tails I follow you down.' And she didn't want to face her parents either. But it ended up with heads. So she left for home. Then I went to Newton for dinner, it was seafood. But I couldn't enjoy my food due to an ulcer. T.T

Today, Sunday. I planned to go to City Harvest with Shaun. But it was cancelled because I was informed that I was my Grandma's Birthday and I was going to the celebration too. I am afraid to offend my grandma. She is a devoted follower to her religion. If she ever found out that I skipped her birthday celebration to go for church, she will flip. And ask me to go over ever sunday and bring me to some environmentally unfriendly temples to go pray. So I went to Takashimaya's Tonkichi restaurant for a lunch gathering. Then it was home for a short while before heading to school, cuz I got a call from Fredrick and Kenneth telling me about meetings today. When I got there, they were doing OotM spontaneous training. Which was hell loads of fun. This was followed by Chemistry SPA questioning. Then walking round the rooms to see what the people were up to. Then Mr Alex Lee brought in his Wii and all the Asst. Coaches were playing with it. Then came dinner and the Amazing race. The race was a set up of different hands-on spontaneous questions for the students. And my station was to build a tower. There were all sorts of different stuff coming up. But we had fun all the same. After that it was a very funny debrief. Then Kenneth and I went to the LC to play a few more games and we headed home.

*sigh* I just showered and my body is aching from that Wii Boxing match...It's going to be a long week ahead. Nitez ya'll.

Hey people. Its Thursday, and I am getting a breather. Or rather, I am taking one. The homeworks are coming on like a barrage, it never ends.

Well anyway, this week is quite alright I guess. Being the last week of term one. But tensions are pretty high on the science department with our O level SPA next week. I kind don't like SPA, but it is also probably the most challenging and fun part of science. Who knows what'll happen?

So this week was quite a chain of events. Monday started off with generally nothing, just that I was late for school. Tuesday was alright, at least until the part where I went for Darren Chiam's History remedial, and got told of by that creature of an Art teacher LSL. And I had not even had lunch, that was what generally make me want to thrash the art studio and kill the thing. But I didn't so I just went home as one model student. Wednesday, was as usual. Short day, rather standard with 4A2...classmates are always up to something. Today, was not half that bad. I thought I was going to be late for assembly again, but it turned out to be in the church. So I was the earliest there, Ironic? The nwe had REW for 2 periods followed by the rest of the day...Chinese tuition was just another session. I thik my Chinese is really going to the dumps...scoring 12 - 15 /30 for the practice papers I get. Oh well.

Somethings happened over the week. Jos lost her thumbdrive on the bus, and it had all her CCA record data and O level F&N stuff in it. Guess this is what they call tough luck. Well, gonna go investigate. And it seems that a prank is impending on someone. Haha, good luck to the victim. I wonder when it is going to be carried out...hmm...

Well, I guess that's all there is to post today. Really tired for some unknown reason...guess it is the SAFTI MI visit tomorrow. Crap, no camera phones...How? T.T...

It has been one heck of a week. Damn I am exhausted. But, NOOOO......I can't sleep. Cause I must rush out 18 frames of images for my Art Teacher. Meh, I never thought the day I would hate art would arrive.

Well, it the end of the week. And Friday wasn't exactly what a normal student would call "brilliant". 4A2 had to submit math files on that day. But half the class didn't finish it, or should I say most of the class. So we all stayed back for ADC [Academic Detention Class] to do math. It was till 5 pm, but we couldn't finish anything even when it was already 5.30 pm. Great, huh? So in the end we all left...

Then Saturday was slipshot for me. I don't feel like mentioning it.

So today, Sunday...umm... Woke up, went for breakfast. The usual stuff. Went to watch Ah Long. Its quite a nice show. But random bit here and there, still funny though. But the message is quite clear. I don't get it. Yea...

Well, that's all folks. Ciaoz. And have a good week ahead.