Hey, 'sup guys? I've been away for quite a bit due to all the competition stress and they took a lot out of me. Been sleeping at 2am and waking at 6am. Not a good sleep pattern especially when you can't even sleep on the transport home.

Anyway, I can't quite be bother filling in that huge vacuum of my life. I'll just move on the whatever I remember in no relevant order.

1) The Marshall Cavendish writing competition where I was the Illustrator for Samuel Tan. Well, it works out horribly and I hate the dude now. Even though I know it is my fault for being too much of a nice guy and agreeing so readily. But I now know, I can't work with pipa playing high society nerds very well. Oh who cares...I'll just take it as a lesson learnt.
Note to self: Don't ever show interest in the Pipa.

2) YES-NEC. One of the things which I really wanted to win. Sigh, lost at the first round. Oh well, I think this year Coral Sec., the team that beat us, stand a chance to win. That girl presenter makes every mistake seem like it was intended. I wish I was that pro. I guess it is just the style. Better luck in the marketplace I guess. Maybe I'll start up my own company.

3) Art O levels. I haven't been doing much about it. But I pretty much have my work planned out for me and I am going to accomplish it to the best of my abilities. (:

4) Prelims are in 11 days time. I need faith to start preparing well. Physics and A math WILL improve. (: Time to just settle down for the final race I guess. Ready myself for the long road ahead.

5) DSA...I need to do up my profile FAST. And I need to find the pieces. Headache... Maybe I should consider Polytechnic. Hmm...

Yea, I think that covers quite a number of stuff. Today I felt a true leverage of all my burdens during service. Time to focus on what fills up moral rather than what drains it all the time. That's how we will always have the energy to move on. Haha, had a lot of fun at Suntec today. Even though someone got lost after I went back. I am really glad to have such great people in my life. Nothing is impossible! (:

Festival of Praise is coming this week!! Admission is free so do join in with the fun!! It will be a good time to take a short break from all the mugging for Prelims. Haha, I wonder who is going?

Alright, gotta go pack some stuff...see if I can do some work or go and catch some ZZZs. I need it. Ms Fong actually said I have eye bags more obvious than hers...that's quite a statement. Ciaoz.

Hey people. Have not been blogging for a while. Actually I think this is a trend going around all Sec 4 bloggers so you shouldn't be surprised if I blog once a month or something in the near future. "O" Levels are coming soon and it is not the time to be kidding around.

I've been doing a lot of stuff and will be doing a lot of stuff for the next fews weeks. Because of all my deadlines. Got that illustrating thingy with Samuel, YES-NEC 2008, Art "O" lvls + homework and all. I am dying here.

Anyway, a run down of my week will be done tomorrow if I have time. Super tired le. haha

Talk about the 11th Hour. *sigh* It is MY 11th Hour for Art and things are still falling into place so slowly. Anyway, sorry about the MIA. I was going through a lot of stuff these few days.

Last week was very eventful. The weekdays passed in a flash. Had art on Tuesday and I was given some new ideas to work on. Maybe I still have hope. (: Then on Wednesday I went to Yamaha to go get some new guitar strings with Jos. They are relatively cheap I guess. But then I was broke for the day. So after that we went to have lunch at KFC and studied a bit. Walked around and stuff. Thursday was the day I just used to change the guitar strings and get my R&R from all the work done. Friday was cellgroup and it was a highlight of my week I guess, my mood took a change. Saturday was rather depressing again as usual, but I guess since cellgroup was the day before I was quite relaxed. Didn't get to see my friends. Tough luck. Sunday, went for service. It was a great inspirational service. I had renewed faith in what God can do in our lives. And Pastor Kong is as funny as usual. Lol...then I had guitar lessons with Wei Sheng after service. Learnt Alleluia to Christ the Lord and Shine like Stars. Finally managed to start communication going with my drama friend again. Yay!

Today was quite an okay day at school. It started off on the wrong foot. And I was just disappointed at the behaviour of my peers in the chapel. So the rest of the day was really, just OKAY. Had NE survey, Oral comm practise and Chemistry 'remedial?' after school. Someone's petty and angry at me. *sigh* ):

Got some illustration to do, and the author is chasing me for the drawings. T.T Then there is YES-NEC to prepare for. And finally Art Coursework 'O' Level Paper 1 to complete. I can do it!!! Just need to be more time conscious. (:

Hey, hope you guys all had a nice fun Youth day. It is great to celebrate the energy and life we have as youths.

Anyway, I've also been up to some activities on my own.

Sunday was interesting. We had Rev. Mike Connell come speak for our service and he is known for his ministry in deliverance and healing. It was an amazing service, he talked about disappointment in one's life and how it can affect a person. Then he went on to tell us how we can deal with these disappointments in the right way. Then there was a time of prayer and deliverance, and things were happening all around me and stuff. It was really quite the scene. But I just watched, didn't feel much. I guess I just forgot everything or got over it somehow...hmm...no idea. Even my cousins got touched by the presence and love of God. (: So cool. Anyway, after service we had fellowship, lunch than headed our separate ways.

Reached my station, walked to my home. But then my mum called just when I reached the void deck of my block asking me if I wanted to join them for dinner. So I did, but I didn't have a huge appetite. Still ate a bit anyway. Then I got home and was really tired. Did some pointless stuff then went to sleep.

Today I woke up at 8.30am and just laid in bed thinking. More like emoing/stoning. I don't know, haha it seemed like a long time. But I was doing it for about 15 mins only. Lol, time really stopped for me! (: So I decided to get up at 9am to bathe, change and pack my stuff for the day ahead. Headed to Harbourfront. When I got there, Jos just left her house and Vic was still enjoying her chocolate milk. -.- So I just walked around aimlessly at Vivo until Jos arrived. Then we walked one round and decided to settle our breakfast at Vivo. Then Vic arrived. So after finishing up our breakfast. We decided to head straight to the rooftop terrace. And there we studied/drew. Jos kept complaining how hot it was...etc...usual stuff. So after that we decided it was getting late so we went down to get the tickets to Hancock. The 1.35pm tickets were selling fast so I decided to just settle with the 2.05pm tickets. So after we purchased our tickets, we headed to Pageone and browsed the stuff there. We saw all sorts of books and stuff. Then there was this Toys for Boys and Toys for Girls book. Nice subtitles. For the guys it was: "The value of a guy is seen by the price of his toys." and for the girls it was: "If there were no girls in the world, all the money would be worthless." [If I am not wrong.] Then we spotted the little black dress shelf? Yea, so Vic was going "ooooOOOO" over the books. But the show was going to start soon, so Jos dragged us both out of the store. We bought popcorns and went in for the movie. Hancock is a pretty good show. Some of the effects reminded me of Ironman, but the storyline is WAYY better. And Charlize Theron had her long hair. Haha, a bit hard to recognize her and Jos said it was Cameron Diaz *coughs followed by laughter*. But the whole she was pretty awesome with the effects and all. I'll rate it 4.5/5. Then after that we went to Coffee Bean Tea Leaf to study because Starbucks was over-crowded. Then we studied till 6.15pm and everyone split ways. We all had sunburns...*sigh* I went to meet my family at Harbourfront cuz my dad was picking us up. Went for dinner...came home. And now I am drawing that waterfront. I am so gonna get scolded by LSL tomorrow.

Feeling a bit moody these past few days. Maybe I am just stressed. I feel like I shouldn't have taken art for O levels because it might be a waste of money on my part. A bit too late for it now anyway. And I have so many stuff to cope with. I just want to drop some of my assignments. Give up everything and just focus on O levels. I don't know why I was such a fool to agree to Samuel Tan's request for an illustrator. I should have know that I can never work with him. Bad choice. *sigh* And there are things I just might not be able to get over. I think I'll see myself living a life of regret, regretting that I over estimate myself and fail to see that I am just not going to be able to meet everything with excellence if I just compromise. Oh well.

This song was quite interesting when I heard it. I like the lyrics, maybe it reflects some of my thoughts? Who knows.

Hey peeps. The end of the weeks is here. That's lesser time to prepare for Prelims.

Anyway the last 2 days of the week was generally just stuff...

Not much to comment about but I was safe from LSL oh Thursday!!! Woo hoo, I survived. And that means a little more time for me. I am going to take as many pictures as I can! Set deal! I just got informed that my class will hold a math test every Thursday...T.T I need the break. But I shall go with it. Had CG on Friday, it was really a great time for me. I felt that God really just lifted my burdens and healed me on the inside.

Today was fun. Woke up at 7am...9am...10am...11.15am, you know what happened in between. SO after that I went for lunch with my family. Then we went to Tiong Bahru Plaza to get assessment book for Nigel. Then came home and got the guitar nicely tuned. It sounds proper now. Then we left the house at 4.30 pm to get Nigel to his JG lessons. I went to join them. Everyone seemed happy but they were preparing their exam pieces. Then we had a short time of drama which was disaterous. Came home...chit chatted...etc etc.I blurted out a lot today. Dunno why, maybe it is just me.

Tomorrow is going to be one heck of a day. Ciaoz.

"I'm Gay!" by Bowling for Soup. Came across that...umm...song? or something today. Haha, it is a really cool music video. It is not about homosexuals, LOL it is about being happy. And it is quite fun to hear.

Anyway, that's not my point. Been having very little sleep this week, or rather it is just insufficient. I've been getting rather temperamental and just don't pressurize me anymore. I won't be able to take it and might snap.

Monday was like pfft.

Tuesday, I had my mother tongue O level oral examination. I think it went pretty well from my opinion. I stammered out my passage with words which I didn't even know existed and my conversation was quite short. But I think I'll survive. (: I feel positive about it.

Today was a long day. Had to got to SP after school. So Frederick and I cabbed to SP for the competition briefing. Mr See was there and we went to say hi. After that we went to register and they looked so surprised at our numbers. YES, WE ONLY HAVE 2 PEOPLE. Now stop staring and let me register. After that we were introduced to our buddy, Bao Xin. Then we went to MLT 12 for the lecture and all. Same ol' same ol'. Haha, but we had the Cheers Nite. Frederick spoiler la, leave at 6.30pm when things were getting fun. So I left too. But just before that something cool happened. We were at the amphitheatre listening to a lecturer play his song and it started raining. So everyone ran from the seats to frontstage. I think it is gonna be an unforgetable experience for the lecturer, haha. But he looked really young. Anyway, after that I just came home. Chatted a lot and drew quite a lot too. Now I am really tired. Nvm, I shall go sleep.

Expecting a DC tomorrow. I hate LSL. WHY IN THE WORLD DID I CHOOSE WATER'S EDGE!!!???

"I sit alone in the silence,
hearing the other children laugh as they walk pass.
I spoke alone in the silence,
speaking of how I longed for the past.

I hear the bells ringing,
I feel the pain searing
and I see myself tearing.

Why does it hurt so much?
How was it so close to me to start with?
When will I ever patch up?

These questions are answered
only by the heart."

Man, I am emo. But oh well, it is how I feel.