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Leroy Yap

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i'm born at 23rd April '92, living out my dreams. if you want my email, please contact me, either in msn or through tagboard.

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I'm chillin' to the tunes of my guitars, wondering about a future in drama, thinking about performances and finding that piece of myself.


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Sunday, January 31, 2010
Workaholic.

Hey guys! Hahah, been working quite a bit this week. Thursday morning, Friday night. And I am working later tonight too. :/

Oh well, my highlight would be going to Harry's with Jerry and Nan, just to chill? I suppose that's about it. (: Usual talk about stuff and the occasional joke here and there.
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Nan's beer and Jagamiester-bomb
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Jerry's Margherita and Liquid XTC
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My rum and coke mix, I had a lighthouse but i downed it immediately cuz it has flames. hahaha...

CHEERS TO SHARON FOR SCARING JUNIORS ALONG WITH ME!!!! HAHAHAHAHA. SO RANDOM.

Talked about a whole range of stuff...I feel better in performance arts now, maybe because its a bigger group and I have more material to work with. I hope I excel enough this sem to do my grade 8 with flying colours.

Mom's standing at the door now. Thanks for spoiling my day. My free day at that too. (: Nice one to my family.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Haircut! Shortcut!

Hey ya'll. Just got my hair cut. Damn short now....as compared to the mop hair I used to have in my ears. Hahaha, oh wells. I'm suppose to go to work tomorrow, I don't know if I will be able to make it. Hopefully I won't oversleep. But problem is, I have problems opening my eyes in the morning nowadays and it actually HURTS. Sigh, we'll see how it goes.

The past 2 days have just been totally hectic and all. I've managed. PFA was quite fun, without a certain someone in class somehow we seemed more friendly and less hostile to one another. Hahaha, an irritant of sorts I suppose. We need to do more work on refinement of scenes and emotions. I wanna start to feel like an actor instead of a drama student making a play for the sake of making it. I wanna lose myself in my character. That'll be nice, to vanish and instead be someone else for the moment. And be recognized for that work.

Lol, I stalked some future DADPian's blogs and said hi. I think I scared them. :/ Hmmm.....lol.

Anyhows and hooz, Arkham Asylum has started to work. I have finished playing Avatar and now I am gonna get started on my anotated bibliography.

Sunday, January 24, 2010
Clubbing, Pubbing and a mess.

Hey all, just got home from celebrating Jerry's Birthday. :/ It was messy, except for the part where we played pool.

Anyway, today I went out to meet Jos after her supermarket tutorial...TP is really one helluva place. Studying in a supermarket. WOW. So we spent the day walking around the city area. Esplanade, Suntec, Old Supreme Court, Under the bridge at Singapore river. It was really interesting and fun to just walk around the city. Kinda screwed up the end of the outing, so yea...hahahaha

Oh lookie what I found at Esplanade Library!
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and I also found the screenplay for it behind this book. Hahah, so nostalgic with the feelings of DD coming back.

Well, after that I went to meet Jerry, Matthew and Junie at Cafe Cartel. And the power died...:/ we waited for 20 mins for the power to get back up. Getting frustrated we left, and the moment we left the power came back on. Like...WTH. So dinner was settled at Ajisen Ramen. Went to play pool after that while waiting for Nan. Headed to CQ at 10pm...and got rejected at Forbidden city, so we just went for a drink at Yellow Jello. Funky place, but it isn't a place to chill out, its for partying. Didn't really like it.

Along the way we saw this:
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Outside SAM.
Like, WOW. Lol...now they have a flirting corner. Great. XD...gotta love singapore's liberal veiwpoints and freedom of expression.

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My drink...Around the World. Nice mix...but REALLY REALLY SWEET.
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Group shot! My face is huge and I look constipated. I think I kinda was....:/
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The nicer group shot. Lol...

Anyway, it was a good way to celebrate Jerry's Birthday I suppose. Just, needed a better environment. Nothing really went as planned today. Hahaha...oh wells. Jolly night. Gotta work at 6pm...-.-

Saturday, January 23, 2010
Avatar Asylum.

Yo guys! What Up?! I've been doing a lot of school stuff and slaving around. Oh yea, taking loads of naps too, which does wonders for my bioclock telling me that Tuesday is Wednesday and Thursday is Friday. Really, DOES WONDERS. Well, at least I have part of my ONOW CA done. Submitted yesterday. And my schedule is slowly but surely building up. Its almost like after the holiday, you can't jump back into activities. Gotta ease yourself in. I think I'm going a bit kooks in my head too, but that's another story.

SO I GOT MYSELF 2 GAMES, Credits to TheOneAndOnlyZac-hbell.


I got my hands on this game. Haven't got started on it though.

But the other one...
Avatar The Game
AVATAR...Lol...blue kitty cats with human bodies romping one another in a mystical place. I wouldn't be surprised if it originated from Japan, but the free state is kinda the same as Japan. Hahaha, still a nice game with pretty good graphics. And its kinda like a sandbox game with very limited area of exploration. Quite boring after a while, but the rides are just COOL. Oh you get to choose being blue or being human.
Avatar The Game
Apparently I haven't got to the point where I can do such cool shit like shooting while flying on an Ikran. Damn.

Well, I just came home from work. Gonna check out Batman: Arkham Asylum now. I'll try to update as often as possible.

Sigh, everyone in DADP 1B01, if you read this blog, PASS ME YOUR DAMN PRESENTATION SLIDES SO I CAN HAVE AN EASIER LIFE TO LIVE!!!!! thank you. (: Hahahahaha, and I do need to start researching on the chalets that are available for booking so that my class can finally let their hair down.

Today was a good day: Someone got their just desserts. Lol.

I feel like buying skates. Just that...should I buy aggro or slalom skates?

Tuesday, January 19, 2010
I feel agnostic. Hahaha, very much so.


Hahahaha, I ROFL'ed.

AXIS OF AWESOME IS AWESOME. Hahahahahaha, I have too much time on my hands. :P

Anyway, its been alright for a start to the week. Hahaha, work is coming in. Man...I need to plan my time properly. And I do plan on going back for church service and cellgroup too. But I am so darn agnostic now. :/ Super agnostic.

Ciaoz all!

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Today was disorientating. WAs late for ONOW cuz I thought it was Wednesday and REALISED THAT IT WAS FRIGGIN' TUESDAY!!! Rawr...FBS was funny. Got to know a bit more about the private life of Mr Lee. Lol...he's a gamer too. hahahahaha, omgosh. Lecturers do have a life too, even if it is gaming. Went to Esplanade Library to look for books. Hope they get approved. Otherwise we are in for a rough time. :/

PFA today was alright. Did more devising work. Explored with movement and dance. I need more confidence to try and dance. I am scared though. I don't think my stature suits theatrical dancing. Its just not aesthetically appealing. Hahaha...a fat boy dancing. Played some music, directed the people and everyone did well.

Sigh, I'm tired. Nothing really ever goes as planned. Nights.

Sunday, January 17, 2010
Everlasting love?


I'm kinda addicted to this song. Hahaha, I am gonna widen my influences in music to find my own sound. (:

Sigh, I've got a lot on my plate now. Drama fees, school projects and a strong desire to get new shoes for chinese new year. Hahaha, been wondering if I should save up for heelys or skates?

Got a housewarming party tomorrow! (: AWESOME....although the attendance list is like...uh, I forgot. Meh...Nevermind it is still gonna be awesome!

Sigh troublesome events are coming up again. Meh, I want my holidays so I can sleep in. Not do more work in school. Hahaha, oh well those people who want to form a camp and ask me to join in better reward me well. :P I wanna make it worth my time. Work is another thing I could do to gain more for myself.

The aim for $630.77/- Hahaha...gawd bless my wretched soul. I feel agnostic. Nights.

Thursday, January 14, 2010
REMEMBER CHRIS CROCKER?!?!?!



THIS IS HIM. ZOMG...hahaha

Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Uprising.

Lookie what just popped into my mailbox?!
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AWESOME. (:

Finally after a month long wait my tickets are here. Hahaha, I wanna get the album too.

Its 2 weeks from now. Quite a while to go. Anyway, an update on school. I am being pressured now with assignments, projects and a few interpersonal problems. I feel like cracking...wish I could. XD I wanna pick up brawling just to expand my energy. I feel like I have too much tension within me to function well as a dramatic arts student. ): A lot of drama is going on in DTVM too...sigh.

OH YEA. Did a bit of course counselling today. Talked to Lea's friend, Elaine, about DADP. Hahaha, I feel like an ambassador. :P Yea right. I can't wait to see how this year's freshmen will turn out. My class has matured a lot, although I have a few opinions that I have not let go. I won't hesitate to say I love the class DADP 01. (:
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We are bonded to a certain degree at least.

Applied drama and psychology has kinda helped me see a road that I want to take in the future. And from what I see, its gonna be rough, bumpy and challenging. And given what I have learnt out of classroom with DADP volunteer programs, I feel that I have a new found respect and understanding about the influence and power of applied drama. Drama on its own can stand as a strong movement, contrary to believes in Singapore. Everyone can do drama. Even the broken and the challenged. (: AWESOME.

Anyway, I just did an IPIP test. Here are the results:

(GOOD LUCK READING)

Extraversion
Extraversion is marked by pronounced engagement with the external world. Extraverts enjoy being with people, are full of energy, and often experience positive emotions. They tend to be enthusiastic, action-oriented, individuals who are likely to say "Yes!" or "Let's go!" to opportunities for excitement. In groups they like to talk, assert themselves, and draw attention to themselves.

Introverts lack the exuberance, energy, and activity levels of extraverts. They tend to be quiet, low-key, deliberate, and disengaged from the social world. Their lack of social involvement should not be interpreted as shyness or depression; the introvert simply needs less stimulation than an extravert and prefers to be alone. The independence and reserve of the introvert is sometimes mistaken as unfriendliness or arrogance. In reality, an introvert who scores high on the agreeableness dimension will not seek others out but will be quite pleasant when approached.

Domain/Facet........... Score 0--------10--------20--------30--------40--------50--------60--------70--------80--------90--------99

EXTRAVERSION...............75 ***************************************************************************

..Friendliness.............67 *******************************************************************

..Gregariousness...........54 ******************************************************

..Assertiveness............81 *********************************************************************************

..Activity Level...........33 *********************************

..Excitement-Seeking.......75 ***************************************************************************

..Cheerfulness.............91 *******************************************************************************************

Your score on Extraversion is high, indicating you are sociable, outgoing, energetic, and lively. You prefer to be around people much of the time.

Extraversion Facets

* Friendliness. Friendly people genuinely like other people and openly demonstrate positive feelings toward others. They make friends quickly and it is easy for them to form close, intimate relationships. Low scorers on Friendliness are not necessarily cold and hostile, but they do not reach out to others and are perceived as distant and reserved. Your level of friendliness is high.
* Gregariousness. Gregarious people find the company of others pleasantly stimulating and rewarding. They enjoy the excitement of crowds. Low scorers tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. They do not necessarily dislike being with people sometimes, but their need for privacy and time to themselves is much greater than for individuals who score high on this scale. Your level of gregariousness is average.
* Assertiveness. High scorers Assertiveness like to speak out, take charge, and direct the activities of others. They tend to be leaders in groups. Low scorers tend not to talk much and let others control the activities of groups. Your level of assertiveness is high.
* Activity Level. Active individuals lead fast-paced, busy lives. They move about quickly, energetically, and vigorously, and they are involved in many activities. People who score low on this scale follow a slower and more leisurely, relaxed pace. Your activity level is average.
* Excitement-Seeking. High scorers on this scale are easily bored without high levels of stimulation. They love bright lights and hustle and bustle. They are likely to take risks and seek thrills. Low scorers are overwhelmed by noise and commotion and are adverse to thrill-seeking. Your level of excitement-seeking is high.
* Cheerfulness. This scale measures positive mood and feelings, not negative emotions (which are a part of the Neuroticism domain). Persons who score high on this scale typically experience a range of positive feelings, including happiness, enthusiasm, optimism, and joy. Low scorers are not as prone to such energetic, high spirits. Your level of positive emotions is high.

Agreeableness
Agreeableness reflects individual differences in concern with cooperation and social harmony. Agreeable individuals value getting along with others. They are therefore considerate, friendly, generous, helpful, and willing to compromise their interests with others'. Agreeable people also have an optimistic view of human nature. They believe people are basically honest, decent, and trustworthy.

Disagreeable individuals place self-interest above getting along with others. They are generally unconcerned with others' well-being, and therefore are unlikely to extend themselves for other people. Sometimes their skepticism about others' motives causes them to be suspicious, unfriendly, and uncooperative.

Agreeableness is obviously advantageous for attaining and maintaining popularity. Agreeable people are better liked than disagreeable people. On the other hand, agreeableness is not useful in situations that require tough or absolute objective decisions. Disagreeable people can make excellent scientists, critics, or soldiers.

Domain/Facet........... Score 0--------10--------20--------30--------40--------50--------60--------70--------80--------90--------99

AGREEABLENESS..............9 *********

..Trust....................82 **********************************************************************************

..Morality.................9 *********

..Altruism.................0

..Cooperation..............19 *******************

..Modesty..................29 *****************************

..Sympathy.................4 ****

Your score on Agreeableness is low, indicating less concern with others' needs Than with your own. People see you as tough, critical, and uncompromising.

Agreeableness Facets

* Trust. A person with high trust assumes that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. Persons low in trust see others as selfish, devious, and potentially dangerous. Your level of trust is high.
* Morality. High scorers on this scale see no need for pretense or manipulation when dealing with others and are therefore candid, frank, and sincere. Low scorers believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. People find it relatively easy to relate to the straightforward high-scorers on this scale. They generally find it more difficult to relate to the unstraightforward low-scorers on this scale. It should be made clear that low scorers are not unprincipled or immoral; they are simply more guarded and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth. Your level of morality is low.
* Altruism. Altruistic people find helping other people genuinely rewarding. Consequently, they are generally willing to assist those who are in need. Altruistic people find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice. Low scorers on this scale do not particularly like helping those in need. Requests for help feel like an imposition rather than an opportunity for self-fulfillment. Your level of altruism is low.
* Cooperation. Individuals who score high on this scale dislike confrontations. They are perfectly willing to compromise or to deny their own needs in order to get along with others. Those who score low on this scale are more likely to intimidate others to get their way. Your level of compliance is low.
* Modesty. High scorers on this scale do not like to claim that they are better than other people. In some cases this attitude may derive from low self-confidence or self-esteem. Nonetheless, some people with high self-esteem find immodesty unseemly. Those who are willing to describe themselves as superior tend to be seen as disagreeably arrogant by other people. Your level of modesty is low.
* Sympathy. People who score high on this scale are tenderhearted and compassionate. They feel the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity. Low scorers are not affected strongly by human suffering. They pride themselves on making objective judgments based on reason. They are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy. Your level of tender-mindedness is low.

Conscientiousness
Conscientiousness concerns the way in which we control, regulate, and direct our impulses. Impulses are not inherently bad; occasionally time constraints require a snap decision, and acting on our first impulse can be an effective response. Also, in times of play rather than work, acting spontaneously and impulsively can be fun. Impulsive individuals can be seen by others as colorful, fun-to-be-with, and zany.

Nonetheless, acting on impulse can lead to trouble in a number of ways. Some impulses are antisocial. Uncontrolled antisocial acts not only harm other members of society, but also can result in retribution toward the perpetrator of such impulsive acts. Another problem with impulsive acts is that they often produce immediate rewards but undesirable, long-term consequences. Examples include excessive socializing that leads to being fired from one's job, hurling an insult that causes the breakup of an important relationship, or using pleasure-inducing drugs that eventually destroy one's health.

Impulsive behavior, even when not seriously destructive, diminishes a person's effectiveness in significant ways. Acting impulsively disallows contemplating alternative courses of action, some of which would have been wiser than the impulsive choice. Impulsivity also sidetracks people during projects that require organized sequences of steps or stages. Accomplishments of an impulsive person are therefore small, scattered, and inconsistent.

A hallmark of intelligence, what potentially separates human beings from earlier life forms, is the ability to think about future consequences before acting on an impulse. Intelligent activity involves contemplation of long-range goals, organizing and planning routes to these goals, and persisting toward one's goals in the face of short-lived impulses to the contrary. The idea that intelligence involves impulse control is nicely captured by the term prudence, an alternative label for the Conscientiousness domain. Prudent means both wise and cautious. Persons who score high on the Conscientiousness scale are, in fact, perceived by others as intelligent.

The benefits of high conscientiousness are obvious. Conscientious individuals avoid trouble and achieve high levels of success through purposeful planning and persistence. They are also positively regarded by others as intelligent and reliable. On the negative side, they can be compulsive perfectionists and workaholics. Furthermore, extremely conscientious individuals might be regarded as stuffy and boring. Unconscientious people may be criticized for their unreliability, lack of ambition, and failure to stay within the lines, but they will experience many short-lived pleasures and they will never be called stuffy.

Domain/Facet........... Score 0--------10--------20--------30--------40--------50--------60--------70--------80--------90--------99

CONSCIENTIOUSNESS..........43 *******************************************

..Self-Efficacy............35 ***********************************

..Orderliness..............43 *******************************************

..Dutifulness..............49 *************************************************

..Achievement-Striving.....59 ***********************************************************

..Self-Discipline..........53 *****************************************************

..Cautiousness.............31 *******************************

Your score on Conscientiousness is average. This means you are reasonably reliable, organized, and self-controlled.

Conscientiousness Facets

* Self-Efficacy. Self-Efficacy describes confidence in one's ability to accomplish things. High scorers believe they have the intelligence (common sense), drive, and self-control necessary for achieving success. Low scorers do not feel effective, and may have a sense that they are not in control of their lives. Your level of self-efficacy is average.
* Orderliness. Persons with high scores on orderliness are well-organized. They like to live according to routines and schedules. They keep lists and make plans. Low scorers tend to be disorganized and scattered. Your level of orderliness is average.
* Dutifulness. This scale reflects the strength of a person's sense of duty and obligation. Those who score high on this scale have a strong sense of moral obligation. Low scorers find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining. They are likely to be seen as unreliable or even irresponsible. Your level of dutifulness is average.
* Achievement-Striving. Individuals who score high on this scale strive hard to achieve excellence. Their drive to be recognized as successful keeps them on track toward their lofty goals. They often have a strong sense of direction in life, but extremely high scores may be too single-minded and obsessed with their work. Low scorers are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. Your level of achievement striving is average.
* Self-Discipline. Self-discipline-what many people call will-power-refers to the ability to persist at difficult or unpleasant tasks until they are completed. People who possess high self-discipline are able to overcome reluctance to begin tasks and stay on track despite distractions. Those with low self-discipline procrastinate and show poor follow-through, often failing to complete tasks-even tasks they want very much to complete. Your level of self-discipline is average.
* Cautiousness. Cautiousness describes the disposition to think through possibilities before acting. High scorers on the Cautiousness scale take their time when making decisions. Low scorers often say or do first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives. Your level of cautiousness is low.

Neuroticism
Freud originally used the term neurosis to describe a condition marked by mental distress, emotional suffering, and an inability to cope effectively with the normal demands of life. He suggested that everyone shows some signs of neurosis, but that we differ in our degree of suffering and our specific symptoms of distress. Today neuroticism refers to the tendency to experience negative feelings. Those who score high on Neuroticism may experience primarily one specific negative feeling such as anxiety, anger, or depression, but are likely to experience several of these emotions. People high in neuroticism are emotionally reactive. They respond emotionally to events that would not affect most people, and their reactions tend to be more intense than normal. They are more likely to interpret ordinary situations as threatening, and minor frustrations as hopelessly difficult. Their negative emotional reactions tend to persist for unusually long periods of time, which means they are often in a bad mood. These problems in emotional regulation can diminish a neurotic's ability to think clearly, make decisions, and cope effectively with stress.

At the other end of the scale, individuals who score low in neuroticism are less easily upset and are less emotionally reactive. They tend to be calm, emotionally stable, and free from persistent negative feelings. Freedom from negative feelings does not mean that low scorers experience a lot of positive feelings; frequency of positive emotions is a component of the Extraversion domain.

Domain/Facet........... Score 0--------10--------20--------30--------40--------50--------60--------70--------80--------90--------99

NEUROTICISM................17 *****************

..Anxiety..................16 ****************

..Anger....................33 *********************************

..Depression...............17 *****************

..Self-Consciousness.......10 **********

..Immoderation.............76 ****************************************************************************

..Vulnerability............9 *********

Your score on Neuroticism is low, indicating that you are exceptionally calm, composed and unflappable. You do not react with intense emotions, even to situations that most people would describe as stressful.

Neuroticism Facets

* Anxiety. The "fight-or-flight" system of the brain of anxious individuals is too easily and too often engaged. Therefore, people who are high in anxiety often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. They may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. They feel tense, jittery, and nervous. Persons low in Anxiety are generally calm and fearless. Your level of anxiety is low.
* Anger. Persons who score high in Anger feel enraged when things do not go their way. They are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter when they feel they are being cheated. This scale measures the tendency to feel angry; whether or not the person expresses annoyance and hostility depends on the individual's level on Agreeableness. Low scorers do not get angry often or easily. Your level of anger is average.
* Depression. This scale measures the tendency to feel sad, dejected, and discouraged. High scorers lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. Low scorers tend to be free from these depressive feelings. Your level of depression is low.
* Self-Consciousness. Self-conscious individuals are sensitive about what others think of them. Their concern about rejection and ridicule cause them to feel shy and uncomfortable abound others. They are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Their fears that others will criticize or make fun of them are exaggerated and unrealistic, but their awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. Low scorers, in contrast, do not suffer from the mistaken impression that everyone is watching and judging them. They do not feel nervous in social situations. Your level or self-consciousness is low.
* Immoderation. Immoderate individuals feel strong cravings and urges that they have have difficulty resisting. They tend to be oriented toward short-term pleasures and rewards rather than long- term consequences. Low scorers do not experience strong, irresistible cravings and consequently do not find themselves tempted to overindulge. Your level of immoderation is high.
* Vulnerability. High scorers on Vulnerability experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. Low scorers feel more poised, confident, and clear-thinking when stressed. Your level of vulnerability is low.

Openness to Experience
Openness to Experience describes a dimension of cognitive style that distinguishes imaginative, creative people from down-to-earth, conventional people. Open people are intellectually curious, appreciative of art, and sensitive to beauty. They tend to be, compared to closed people, more aware of their feelings. They tend to think and act in individualistic and nonconforming ways. Intellectuals typically score high on Openness to Experience; consequently, this factor has also been called Culture or Intellect. Nonetheless, Intellect is probably best regarded as one aspect of openness to experience. Scores on Openness to Experience are only modestly related to years of education and scores on standard intelligent tests.

Another characteristic of the open cognitive style is a facility for thinking in symbols and abstractions far removed from concrete experience. Depending on the individual's specific intellectual abilities, this symbolic cognition may take the form of mathematical, logical, or geometric thinking, artistic and metaphorical use of language, music composition or performance, or one of the many visual or performing arts. People with low scores on openness to experience tend to have narrow, common interests. They prefer the plain, straightforward, and obvious over the complex, ambiguous, and subtle. They may regard the arts and sciences with suspicion, regarding these endeavors as abstruse or of no practical use. Closed people prefer familiarity over novelty; they are conservative and resistant to change.

Openness is often presented as healthier or more mature by psychologists, who are often themselves open to experience. However, open and closed styles of thinking are useful in different environments. The intellectual style of the open person may serve a professor well, but research has shown that closed thinking is related to superior job performance in police work, sales, and a number of service occupations.

Domain/Facet........... Score 0--------10--------20--------30--------40--------50--------60--------70--------80--------90--------99

OPENNESS TO EXPERIENCE.....76 ****************************************************************************

..Imagination..............92 ********************************************************************************************

..Artistic Interests.......73 *************************************************************************

..Emotionality.............20 ********************

..Adventurousness..........73 *************************************************************************

..Intellect................56 ********************************************************

..Liberalism...............84 ************************************************************************************

Your score on Openness to Experience is high, indicating you enjoy novelty, variety, and change. You are curious, imaginative, and creative.

Openness Facets

* Imagination. To imaginative individuals, the real world is often too plain and ordinary. High scorers on this scale use fantasy as a way of creating a richer, more interesting world. Low scorers are on this scale are more oriented to facts than fantasy. Your level of imagination is high.
* Artistic Interests. High scorers on this scale love beauty, both in art and in nature. They become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. They are not necessarily artistically trained nor talented, although many will be. The defining features of this scale are interest in, and appreciation of natural and artificial beauty. Low scorers lack aesthetic sensitivity and interest in the arts. Your level of artistic interests is high.
* Emotionality. Persons high on Emotionality have good access to and awareness of their own feelings. Low scorers are less aware of their feelings and tend not to express their emotions openly. Your level of emotionality is low.
* Adventurousness. High scorers on adventurousness are eager to try new activities, travel to foreign lands, and experience different things. They find familiarity and routine boring, and will take a new route home just because it is different. Low scorers tend to feel uncomfortable with change and prefer familiar routines. Your level of adventurousness is high.
* Intellect. Intellect and artistic interests are the two most important, central aspects of openness to experience. High scorers on Intellect love to play with ideas. They are open-minded to new and unusual ideas, and like to debate intellectual issues. They enjoy riddles, puzzles, and brain teasers. Low scorers on Intellect prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. They regard intellectual exercises as a waste of time. Intellect should not be equated with intelligence. Intellect is an intellectual style, not an intellectual ability, although high scorers on Intellect score slightly higher than low-Intellect individuals on standardized intelligence tests. Your level of intellect is average.
* Liberalism. Psychological liberalism refers to a readiness to challenge authority, convention, and traditional values. In its most extreme form, psychological liberalism can even represent outright hostility toward rules, sympathy for law-breakers, and love of ambiguity, chaos, and disorder. Psychological conservatives prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition. Psychological liberalism and conservatism are not identical to political affiliation, but certainly incline individuals toward certain political parties. Your level of liberalism is high.

I am a LIBERALIST!!! Hahahaha, joke. Damn long leh...Alright, I got to go settle other matters now. Catch ya'll round!

Saturday, January 9, 2010
Friday nights...

http://secrets-or-fetishes.tumblr.com/

Got linked to this site from Seuu Seuu. Lol...its an interesting place to post up thoughts and comments. (: "Awesomeballz." Quoted.

Well, its the 2nd day of Open House, met new people. Like Liew Yung, Pei Shan and Wen Ya. Attended a 30mins long GEMS lesson. Sigh, assignments are pouring in. But it is managable. I just need to be able to prioritize properly.

Need to manage my money more wisely too. :/ I am BROKE. Sigh...Alvin and chipmunks 2 is NOT worth $10. Don't matter what they say. :P

Anyway, tomorrow I got to attend ritual prayers to my late grandfather who passed away when I was in Sec 2. :/...not looking forward to it. Sigh...

Nights ya'll

Thursday, January 7, 2010
School..

SP Open House is here.

And I am still up blogging. School so far has been alright for me. A lot of assignments to work on. (: Hope I don't bite off more than I can chew.

Watched AVATAR in 3D today.
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these are uncomfortable as hell.

But it was worth it. I wanna get closer to people again.

Short entry, nights.

Sunday, January 3, 2010
Well toasted.

So I'm back from M'sia. Fishing was an interesting experience. I mean...fishing is fun and all. But waiting for bites and getting bitten by mosquitoes in return is a killjoy. So...yea. I got sunburnt too. (Hopefully I look a little darker)

Nothing much to say, so....PICTURES!!!
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SUNSET!!
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Fishing...
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The moon was so pretty...
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Neon lights, geez so sea shack.
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My dad lazing and waiting for bite....

Well, it was suppose to be a family outing. But during this whole trip. It was almost like a holiday with a bunch of strangers and some random kids I knew. I was so not fitting it. Reasons being: 1, I don't do this kind of stuff often. 2, I actually have a life. 3, the kids were playing stuff that I grew out off. 4, the adults were all in their own cliques. 5, I am probably the only teenager there who isn't a rich brat. 6, the other 2 teens there, carried themselves so high that they looked like total PRICKS.

So much for a family outing. Hahahahah, like seriously WTF? Who brings their working partners out on a family outing? Its just plain weird. Oh well, the man with the money talks I suppose. hahaha~~

School is going to start again. Open house is happening this coming week. 7th - 9th. I am thinking about Comperes, SP ACERs and CASS all at once. I hope my juniors next year will be awesomez!!! Although I ain't quite ready to say: "Hey I am a senior now!" I don't think DADP will have trouble finding Juniors! Yay for that!!! As for comperes, I really hope things will improve and there will be more passion. Hahaha, I almost sound cliche. Anyway, some issues on leadership and character has been bugging me. The people around me, they are great people and really awesome in my opinion. But I sometimes do feel that, we as Year 1s need to grow up and be more understanding. Leadership, in my opinion, is not something hard to engage in. Leadership is about having people follow you, commanding respect, making right decisions, being a people's person, dedicated, tenacious, organized, in control...I agree with those qualities. But when do you ever really notice these things? To me, a true leader is one who knows when to step in and when to step down. Someone who knows himself well and has a sure sense of himself. And with that security in himself, put the perspective of another person in line with his. And that'll more or less give you leadership.

Meh. These things are so troublesome. Don't even know why I like doing them. Lol...

Oh, and I am back to thinking about my old saying. "In your world, you are the protagonist and I am the antagonist. In my world, I am the protagonist and you are just a waste of space." I am starting to get bitchy nowadays. Sigh, I need to curb myself from become who I was. Isn't nice. (:

Anyway, gotta go do ILP now! Catch ya round!!

Friday, January 1, 2010
2010

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

Its officially the new year!!! Anyway, BMT camp was...uh, an interesting experience. I think it made me see the true nature of some people within the camp and outside the camp too. It was really a test of real leaders within the camp. I guess for me it was quite fruitful cuz I didn't go through the hell that was in place for us, but I still understood what was being looked out for.

Went out drinking with NAN and JERRY at Harry's just now. Haha, FLAMING LAMBORGHINI kicks ass!!! Hahaha, chilled and lazed around. Live music and all. What a way to welcome the new year. Btw look at the difference between my photo and Jerry's photo.

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 I took this photo
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Jerry took this photo.

Clearly someone is drunk. XD

Anyway, I am going to M'sia for a fishing trip tomorrow. I'll take photos and blog about it too!!! Don't miss me too much!