Let's do a rain check. I am a 19 year old Singaporean Boy. I am currently 3rd Year in SP Diploma in Applied Drama and Psychology. I don't like to reveal a lot about my relationships nowadays. Am rapidly looking forward to graduation and doing work related to my field of interest. Am socially awkward (as I'd like to perceive myself). Have no time to take my BTT to get my licence. Worrying about NAPFA, FYP and Internship all in 1 year. Love the stage, the company of people and...-at this point most people would include a vague character indicating to a romantic interest of the opposite/same sex, as for me- myself.

Okay, so I lack a licence, a proper relationship status and a diploma. Traded up for an apparently rare sense of self esteem which equates with narcissism, some simple social skills and opportunities to be heard on a stage. Pretty alright if you ask me. (:

So anyway, I'm in the 19 club now. And I do feel different. I have definitely changed and hopefully gained wisdom throughout the whole of last year. 18 was a bittersweet year for me, challenging my ability to trust, my openness to new experiences and my personal judgement. It has taught me a lot about the concept of living an honest life, granted me new frames to observe the world through and acceptance for who I have been and who I am today. Which brings me to my next point...


A LIGHTSABER

Courtesy of Lucas Tan, Benjamin Khoo and Ke Li, in mention Joscelyn Tan, Shaun Tay, Wong Chong and because I ran into him - Nick Yue. The simplicity of this toy has made it one of the most enviable present I have gotten in a while. The concept is just so fun!! I do love things that glow-in-the-dark and are fun to have. This is almost perfect!!! Just that my little bro stole it from me the moment I got home. LOL...sorry guys nothing I could do about that!!! ): But I appreciate all you've done, all the same. Pity I didn't have more time with you all. It is a regrettable issue on my part.

This is a summable part of my year as an 18 year old, but I need to take the time now to go through catharsis for this lesson. Multi-Level Marketing, Network Marketing, Social Marketing - MLM. MLMotherfuckin' M. Do forgive me on my language, as foul as it is I do hold very strong thoughts about it now. I've been through this, out of naivety, stubbornness, denial and a dash of foolishness. This is an industry where I believe people are humane and want to help - that's the ideology. Unfortunately, not everyone has that people relation skills or work ethics that are necessary. I think the whole system within Singapore is seriously messed up. Youths who are barely 18 are going in there starting in this line, mostly without prior knowledge about ethical considerations of the trade or what are the soft skills required. And as a society, I feel that Singapore needs to admit that soft skills (e.g. how to love, people relations, creating a relationship) are not BORN into you. Neither does everyone learn at the speed of a regulated clock from observation. This one industry has brought me a desire for understanding and detest for ignorance, and planted griefs in my mind that I am still weeding out. After 2 more months, I will push my way out of this history and any connection with this part of my past will be gone. Forever.

I have somehow managed to claw my way into a place at The Young Co. with SRT. It has taught me valuable things about the craft of theatre, made me think, given me connections to new people and spurred my passion for the art of playing. (: For that I really thank God for keeping watch upon my dreams and giving me blessed opportunities in this short little life.


Of course I appreciate dessert with me parents too.

@10atclaymore in Pan Pacific Orchard. Macaroons for the first time in my life (yea I am that deprived), along with mint fudge cake -simply delightful- gula melaka sago - which was light on the tongue - vanilla Crème brûlée - ergh.- and HONEYDEW PUDDING!!!! This plate just radiates foodgasm. The only thing worth it there was the Oven Baked Salmon!! I skipped out on the fondue...cuz it seemed like a strawberry one and there were no marshmellows. )': HOW DOES ONE DO A FONDUE WITHOUT le MARSHMELLOWES?! But it was time with Family, who's complaining??

Of course I went drinking with Mark, Jeremiah, Constance and Juanita @ Roku. What happened? I'll leave it to imagination. But it started with Never Never Ever.

So looking forward towards my 19th Year...I do want to find some form of true inner peace, learning meditation and emotional awareness. Get over the need to hold back what I want to express, due to the fear of judgement and rejection. And of course, have a totally different experience of life through different lenses again!! Robin Sharma - "Some people live through the same year 80 times and call it a life." (This is paraphrased for benefit of doubt) I'll not live life on repeat. There's more to life, always.

Adieu.