Been quite a week. I should be doing my CDI essay and game design right now. But I just can't. I feel paralyzed by the fact that I have no learnt anything from games design and well the essay is just screwed up. But, on other news INTO THE WOODS WAS AWESOME!!!!

I really enjoyed it, although there were certain comedic moments that were rushed through without enough time for laughter - that or the mature adult audience were being really conservative about their thoughts. Company for it was kinda...blah. BUT IT FELT AWESOMELY LIBERATING TO BE THE ONLY ONE LAUGHING IN A ROW OF ADULTS. WEIRDLY. :D

Okay, I've had enough of this.
I do not have to justify myself to you, unless it is my choice.
I exercise this freedom as and when I feel like it.
You may pester me, throttle me down with your insecurities -
but don't EVER expect me to bend to you.


You're a friend, yes.
You're a fellow brother, maybe.
You're my BEST friend, perhaps.
But by no means will I explain myself and what I do to you.


Yes, I am two-faced, bipolar or schizophrenic,
take your go at labeling me.
I am a puppet to my mind,
a mask to my whims.
I have a million facades to my one self.
Who doesn't?


"A ticking time bomb."
I've grown to be numb to that which threatens to shackle.
I live, liberal and free in my own thoughts.
You live for the being of others.
There is passive aggression, frustration.


Frustration at the lack of any vision.
Frustration at the contentment with being inadequate.
Frustration at the willingness to let go of the bigger picture for small satisfaction.
No more, no more.

No more energy sapping dullness.
No more contented failure.
No more dreamless tomorrows.
This is where I bite the thread and pull. Snap.

I wanna be where the high rollers are.
Where the light isn't feared.
Where people look at each other and see confidence instead of arrogance.
Where dreamers walk and visionaries gaze.
Where eyes look beyond fear, frustration and hopelessness.
To find my hidden muse for liberation of my creative energy.

Honestly, it is just a fancy way to say get a life or F - off.


Cheers!