I'm on a train ride to my next destination...

I like times like these, as tiring as they are, it is time to ponder - reflect and think about the priorities of today's Leroy. I need to learn how to scribble on moving vehicles, my minor OCD nature causes me to not like doing it because my handwriting turns out shit after.

Tonight is opening night.

Smile by Threading Moments.

It is quite surreal really, the idea that something like this could come to pass and happen in 6 months from the conception of the idea. The crazy myriad of emotions building up to this, the fears, the trust, the lessons learnt about creation and work.

I am now experiencing a bubbly mix of excitement, anticipation, joy, disappointment, pride, anxiety and fear.

Excitement and anticipation for the most obvious reasons. Joy that my vision is slowly inching its way out of my idealistic brain. Disappointment is a dash because of the possible commitment I could have given to the group. Pride for the members who have put in laborious hours of honest work to create what will happen tonight. Anxiety to see the quality and how it meets standards. And fear, because anything that is worth a dime to my soul is matched with the dread of fear which is the good fight we all have to fight against.

It's been a while since I've felt this alive. Creating is one of the best feelings to experience because it is the inner gratification of expression being manifested in reality and when it is well-intended, it hardly can go wrong.

The next goal is discipline - for my mind and body. To create a personal culture of work that is effective, efficient and beneficial to people around me. Time to focus on sorting myself out. I've had an unbelievable amount of help from mentors, friends and fellow visionaries to make threading moments possible. Time to rise up to the occasion.

I acknowledge that I remain well blessed and life is good to me. (: